Cancer vs. Control Freaks

On Thursday, I went back to the hospital to receive my first chemo treatment. Since I had only been released on Tuesday after my collapsed lung ordeal, I felt like I’d barely left. My sweetheart and I were warmly welcomed by the nurses and set up in a very nice private room. This was the first of my “long” days (there will be six in all) where I received a couple of different chemo drugs as well as “symptom” meds to prevent the onset of symptoms. I settled in with my iPod and my book and my sweetie did the same.

Since I had nothing to compare the experience to, I didn’t know what to expect. My nurse was wonderful and explained every detail. All in all, it was a good day. It was also humbling because I know that much of the next few months is out of my control. What I have control over is:
* taking my medications (both traditional and complementary – my doc is aware of all that I’m taking)
* having “conversations” with my body to tell the good cells to fight off the bad cells
* exercising gently to keep my energy up
* eating as healthy as possible
* getting enough rest
* minimizing stress levels by spending time with my family, reading, cross-stitching, and enjoying other hobbies

Although it looks like there’s a lot that I have control over, ultimately it is up to my body to accept the medications to fight the cancer. In theory, this should stave off symptoms and side effects of the medications and ultimately beat the disease. The “control freak” in me needs to take a backseat. All I can do is support my body in its fight.

3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Ellen Lavenson Stanclift
    Nov 12, 2011 @ 10:22:50

    I hope you’re feeling as well as you can feel. Just rest…and reflect. I, too, am a control freak. Cancer teaches us that we can’t control the most basic thing: our own bodies. Please call me with any errands I can run for you…even if it’s just that you have a sudden craving for a Dunkin’s Mocha.


  2. candid about cancer
    Nov 17, 2011 @ 12:32:19

    Thank you, Ellen. You are such a source of inspiration for me. Hugs to you!


  3. Beth
    Jul 11, 2012 @ 15:28:12

    Ouch! That one hit me on the head! I too thought I had everything planned. Then, WHAMMO! Ovarian cancer! Hugs to all-


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